slow and steady on this new toy piece,
Monday, July 21, 2014
I am having one of those what the f am I doing days. I am really struggling with balancing all that I have n my plate. I am balancing and all but I am frustrated so much by my artist side. I am always fighting for studio time and since my spring and summer have been so hectic with teaching and life stuff I feel like things have gone stagnant which, though not totally true, is terrifying.
And I love, love, love teaching it is so often a choice between my own work and practice or teaching and always having to struggle and navigate that is exhausting at times.
I also have not had a show that felt like a true accomplishment in quite awhile not. I am so aware that part of that is my lack of applying for things but that is just another giant time suck.
The images I am shooting with my camera feels great there is just that major and totally annoying issue of not having any way to currently print them. Slight snag in that passion. But I am hoping some things in the fall will amend that issue. Fingers uber crossed there.
Really just venting but why cannot us artist shave some way of being more supported in our endeavors instead of having to struggle and fight to make our entire careers.
Posted by Joetta M. at 12:51 PM
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Monday, July 14, 2014
I find this article strange and interesting. Particularly the fact that Walker seemed to be distraught over the dismantling of the piece and was not able to be present for it. It seems if the point of the work is ephemeral then one would psychologically enjoy that aspect of it or want to experience it fully.
The other issue never discussed in such articles is the luxury of being able to make works like this as most artists cannot afford to make a work that is ephemeral because they are trying to survive financially and /or if they do no one ever knows about it as it is already gone.
It is just a much more complex issue then this article alludes to.
Posted by Joetta M. at 6:19 AM
I am feeling so lost in my practice lately, my schedule has been so hectic, my life so full and as a result at certain points my energy so low that I feel like I am lost in the water (but with no panic.) You know what I mean... Its like I am slowly swimming, the sounds of the world are muted, the waves are above me, I am ok but I am totally without a sense of which way to go.
It is a strange place that I have never been. Usually I am either creating and just wanting more time or feeling dormant and frustrated with that. I do not necessarily feel dormant but also not overly ambitious. Progress is being made just achingly slow. I really want to show my work but have no energy or ability to get applications done. I want to write about are but really have no ideas--- and I actually do not want to write I want to talk.
I am so ungrounded here. I am still shooting a lot but have no access to print which is beyond frustrating. I have lots of teaching lined up but still have not found my true home as a teacher. I want to really become established in the community here but then think I should stay focused on NYC and internationally but then I wonder why any of it matters.
And then when I have a little time and energy I stitch. Something, anything.
In reality I have had a wonderful summer so far a summer full of friends, meeting new friends, going outside, catching up with my son since I missed him all spring, going to concerts, and reading some wonderfully inspiring stuff. But not making art and having this follow a spring full of teaching and not making art is a little scary.
But I guess eventually something will catch my eye in the water and I will swim over that way and a new cycle will begin.
Posted by Joetta M. at 5:57 AM